I caused Sir undue stress yesterday, but not on purpose. But still stress non the less. I had unexpected company yesterday and was unable to get on my phone or even on my computer to drop him a line to say I wouldn't be around much.
This isn't the first time this has happened. It was either last weekend or the weekend before that the same thing happened. I'm wondering if there is more going on then meets the eye.
We haven't had as much time together as we are use to due to his work and is this my way of subconsciously getting back at him for that. Is this my way of getting him back for feeling a little neglected. Am I that way or is it my way of getting attention for him. Bad attention, but attention?
So much to think about this morning.
There is nothing wrong with reflecting on this, I would say though don't beat yourself up. Understanding the underlying dynamics and subconscious motivations can help us communicate with a partner in more helpful ways. However it doesn't mean you were being intentionally manipulative before, just that you maybe weren't conscious of these things.
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