Am having a hard time finding my public voice. I have had a private blog strictly for Sir for almost a year now. It is easy for me to write the private blog because I know it is for his eyes only and I know I can say anything and he won't hold it against me. Actually on several occasions he has helped me work through issues I was having with self as well as with friends.
But this is different. This is putting myself out there for everyone to see. This is something Sir has assigned me to do. I am to express myself once a week. I have no limits on the topics I choose to talk about. At first I was a little excited, but now it is tough. It isn't as easy as I thought it would be.
I have been reading other blogs hoping to find motivation, hoping to come up with ideas and nothing. So until the ideas start flowing I will tell you about my week.
This week I have been accused of topping from the bottom. This was said a little tongue in cheek. Sir has been sick for the past two weeks. And me being the type of person that I am. Well let's just say I was a little bossy about what he should be doing about getting better.
But the one thing I discovered this week is I really hate the distance between us when he's ill. I hated not being there to serve him. To provide him with whatever he needed to get better. It is the nature of the beast part of our relationship I suppose. The distance is always a problem.
Plus it didn't help since he wasn't feeling well and with my schedule at work, we didn't get as much computer time or phone time together as we are use too. I thought I fared well though. I didn't freak out like I use to early on in our relationship when we would have to go a day without so much as a word to the other. This time it has been two weeks. Two weeks with limited contact. Two weeks of hell for me, but at the same time two weeks to realizing how much I have grown since I have met Sir. For me this in and of itself was huge.
Having less contact than usual can be hard, but the upside is the T/two can build a deeper trust and closeness, ironically enough. Wishing you both well..K
ReplyDeletemijena, you are doing a great job with the posts here! We want to read about your week, your day, your thoughts. This is how we learn from each other. You may have suggestions or ideas or approach something from a view I haven't thought of.
ReplyDeleteOh...and telling Sir to eat chicken soup and take his vitamins is not topping from the bottom but rather protecting your interests. *grins and winks* Though I will plead temporary insanity if you try that line and it doesn't work. lol.
Keep up the great writing!
Wanting to take care of Sir is not topping from the bottom, even though I wasn't feeling well I needed to get you to laugh and when I said that it worked.
ReplyDeleteTaking care of Me when I am sick is just another way of serving your Sir.