Collared

The ring of the phone woke me from my slumber. As I groggily said hello, Sir's voice on the other end instructed me he was on his way and I should be waiting at the door for him -- in position -- wearing my blue Friday attire, but not wear my everyday collar. He would be there anywhere between 10 to 20 minutes.

I hurriedly brushed my teeth, combed my hair, threw on my blue Friday attire then examined myself in the mirror to make sure the woman in the reflection would meet with His approval. When I decided there wasn't much more I could do to improve I picked my spot just inside the door, got in position and waited.

My nerves were a little raw. I didn't know what the day would hold. But I did know this would definitely be a "play" day.

As I waited, my mind began to wander. And when that happens well let's just say it is not always for the better. I began to wonder why I wasn't allowed to wear my everyday collar. He had given it to me for my birthday and the first time I visited him he had placed it around my neck. It was when I gave myself fully to him. And I wasn't allowed to wear it. Was our relationship changing. Had I done something wrong. The thoughts were running through my mind and they weren't pleasant thoughts.

So I wouldn't drive myself crazy I decided to go over my mantra in my mind. I didn't want to disappoint Sir so I was trying to anticipate what he would want from me. What he would expect from me. As my nerves continue to grow so did the burn in my legs.

I had been in position before. I had been practicing prior to this trip. But I had never been there for any extended period of time. I kept trying to listen for the elevator, to hear the key in the door, but nothing. Then as if out of no where he was there. He was standing in front of me. Hand in my hair calming me. His touch always calms me. He greeted me. Told me to recite my mantra to him. I began and it was like all intelligence left me. I couldn't remember the words. I have been reciting those words for several months now, but now it was like I had never said them before in my life. I was disappointing Sir. My greatest nightmare was coming true.

Sir knew I would be rougher on myself for failing to recite my mantra -- for not remembering, but I also knew he wouldn't forgive this. So mentally I prepared myself for what was to come. But what I didn't expect was what happened next.

He moved behind me. I couldn't see what he was doing, but I could hear him. I could hear him rummaging around in the bag he had brought with him. Then I felt it. Felt him place a collar around my neck. My Collar.

As he fastened it around my neck he talked to me about submitting -- what it meant to him -- what it would mean to me. I was on such a high I can't tell you the exact words but as he said them to me I remember feeling a tug in my heart. I felt his love surround me. Felt his strength empower me. I knew at that very moment we were meant to be with each other. That what we have -- what we experience together far exceeds anything I have ever felt before.